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August 25, 2002 ~ 9:47 PM
I scanned a few pictures that I took in Downtown LA. It's so beautiful there. Like, there's funky artwork everywhere and bums and Mexicans and gorgeous buildings. I love it. I love all the fountains. My grandparents live right in middle of it all. Retirement home converted from a hotel or something. Anyhow I love LA despite the dirt and the grime and the fog. It's so pretty there... You just gotta know where to look.
You can see some of the pix in my photo album.
Bluebull32: so what is your dating outlook now?
Bluebull32: still looking for "the one"?
RavenRose24: i dont think "the one" exists anymore
Bluebull32: i think there is someone for everyone
Bluebull32: maybe i am living in a fairy tale tho
RavenRose24: i thot abel was the one
RavenRose24: i guess he thought differently
Bluebull32: i know you did
RavenRose24: he was everything i've ever wanted i a boyfriend... and since he obviously wasn't "the one", then who?
RavenRose24: I honestly do not believe that there is someone out there for me
Bluebull32: oh, you will meet many more people in the coming years
Bluebull32: patience
RavenRose24: but i don't think there is a prince charming er wutever
RavenRose24: no fairy tale fer me
Bluebull32: oh
RavenRose24: rape and child abuse and repeated heartbreak - i don't know why i was still holding onto a dream
RavenRose24: friend told me that i'm the most jaded 17 yr old he knows... i guess i've just grown up. finally. at least i dont think i'll give myheart and soul for someone to hurt anymore
Bluebull32: you have to
Bluebull32: you have no choice
RavenRose24: yeah.. but it kinda makes me sad to realize that there is no such thing as "happily ever after" and "one true love"
RavenRose24: no such thing as true devotion or unconditional love
Bluebull32: there could be
RavenRose24: <--- doubts it
------------------------------------RavenRose24: i cant promise ill be single
RavenRose24: im stupid
RavenRose24: and i like to make the same mistakes multiple times
I am. I'm just stupid. I thought I've been called a dreamer, an optimist, an idealist, a romantic. The bottom line is, I'm just stupid. I don't learn from my mistakes. I don't know if I ever will. I think I've gotten used to the pain.
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