Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry why are you running away? April 29, 2003 ~ 4:07 PM I miss him. Lots. And I realize that I can live perfectly well without him. But I don't want to. I can live without him; I don't want to live without him. And this is important to me. So I'm gonna make sure that he's mine again. That first few days, trying to be brave. Took so much of my energy. I hate depressing people and saying I'm miserable and I wanna die when they ask me how I am. But it just takes too much energy to pretend. You know? And I don't have that energy right now. I need to concentrate on school and moving and getting over this cold. And getting Noah back. He's running away. And I don't have the stamina to chase him any longer. It breaks my heart to know he's running away from me. He's wasting his time. We're meant for each other. We'll end up together. I'm wasting away. It's horrible. I'm dying. He doens't know it. I try not to show it. It's just hard. Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry ~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~ �MY 5 MOST RECENT ENTRIES� August 02, 2004 [3:29 AM] - Took the HELL test again... July 29, 2004 [3:57 AM] - Forgiveness... Meh. Lol July 28, 2004 [4:54 PM] - Emotional Limbo... *bends over backwards* July 28, 2004 [1:29 PM] - the miracle of Moo July 28, 2004 [3:05 AM] - The sound of the ocean.... .