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Wow, I'm a bitch sometimes.
June 30, 2003 ~ 7:42 PM
I guess I'm just sorta fed up. Here's a convo about why basically. I didn't even start in on Zach. I'll talk about Zach later tonight. Depending on whether or not his ass calls me. Yeah so towards the end... towards now, I just bitched Mike out. How mean, huh. I dunno why. Just lashing out at him? Cuz he's adding to my upset-ness? I have no idea why.
OnTheRitz (10:00:10 PM): <3
OMFG Noah sucks (10:11:25 PM): hey
OnTheRitz (10:11:34 PM): waddap qt
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Auto response from OMFG Noah sucks (10:11:34 PM): I'm either writing in my diary or messing with the HTML for it... Come check out my diary if you wanna.
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OnTheRitz (10:11:46 PM): awwww come on now you did that on purpose
OnTheRitz (10:11:53 PM): i responded like 2 seconds after your IM :-P
OnTheRitz (10:14:17 PM): hey your user info says 'diis is me' but I keep thinking it says 'diss me' - you should change it to 'esta moi'
OMFG Noah sucks (10:50:00 PM): diss iss me
OMFG Noah sucks (10:50:04 PM): you are dyslexic
OnTheRitz (10:50:10 PM): i know i know
OnTheRitz (10:50:28 PM): hey read tonight's entry
OnTheRitz (10:50:49 PM): i know that i could never really understand - its more like i'm trying to understand what I could say or do
OnTheRitz (10:51:05 PM): kind of like reflecting on myself too, and plus you so nice anyways
OMFG Noah sucks (10:51:27 PM): how did you read it?
OMFG Noah sucks (10:51:32 PM): I just finished it like now
OnTheRitz (10:52:31 PM): i thought maybe you were trying to tell me to read it by instantly away messaging me
OMFG Noah sucks (10:52:40 PM): no
OnTheRitz (10:52:40 PM): i dunno i read into things too much
OMFG Noah sucks (10:52:49 PM): i was juss writing in my diary
OMFG Noah sucks (10:52:51 PM): and i wasn't on away
OMFG Noah sucks (10:52:57 PM): and i you had IMed me
OMFG Noah sucks (10:53:00 PM): so i responded
OMFG Noah sucks (10:53:04 PM): but wanted to concentrate on my diary
OnTheRitz (10:53:20 PM): whatever its cool
OnTheRitz (10:55:00 PM): i feel like i got so much off my chest that i won't write in my diary for a week
OMFG Noah sucks (10:57:22 PM): =]
OMFG Noah sucks (10:57:26 PM): i write almost everyday
OnTheRitz (10:58:02 PM): thats cool
OnTheRitz (11:49:23 PM): you are a BEAUTIFUL, SEXY, SWEET, SMART, AWESOME girl!
OMFG Noah sucks (11:56:17 PM): ....
OMFG Noah sucks (11:56:23 PM): do you have yahoo messenger?
OnTheRitz (11:56:26 PM): yeah
OnTheRitz (11:56:28 PM): ontheritz
OnTheRitz (11:57:22 PM): i think i added and deleted you forever ago when you IM'ed me but I couldn't IM back
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:17 AM): lol
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:18 AM): oh
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:19 AM): okay
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:22 AM): but um
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:25 AM): if you go onto yahoo
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:33 AM): you'll find a guy with the yahoo id davidika
OnTheRitz (12:00:38 AM): uh huh
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:40 AM): he juss made me feel like a bitch
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:43 AM): and hate myself
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:46 AM): so you should talk to him
OMFG Noah sucks (12:00:53 AM): he'll tell you that i'm not what you just said
OnTheRitz (12:00:57 AM): ok
OMFG Noah sucks (12:01:01 AM): oh
OMFG Noah sucks (12:01:11 AM): and could you tell him that i'm not a bitch? and that i'm a cat?
OMFG Noah sucks (12:01:17 AM): he hurt my feelings
OMFG Noah sucks (12:01:21 AM): juss made me hella sad
OMFG Noah sucks (12:01:31 AM): made me more depressed than i started out
OnTheRitz (12:01:33 AM): dont let it get to you
OnTheRitz (12:01:43 AM): the world is full of assholes with convincing arguments
OnTheRitz (12:01:52 AM): you have to know you're doing good
OnTheRitz (12:02:15 AM): its probably also just some typical guy who likes you and uses put downs to lower your self esteem so you'll sleep with him
OnTheRitz (12:02:48 AM): i dunno but still don't listen to his BS anyways - I am seriously REVERED by alot of people in terms of philosophy, character judgement
OnTheRitz (12:02:55 AM): trust me you are so so beautiful inside and out
OnTheRitz (12:03:27 AM): ever read way of the peaceful warrior? if you have, theres a young man who calls me marylyn. (that has a big meaning)
OMFG Noah sucks (12:04:53 AM): ...
OMFG Noah sucks (12:04:54 AM): nope
OMFG Noah sucks (12:04:58 AM): you should get it for me
OnTheRitz (12:05:03 AM): haha ok
OnTheRitz (12:05:13 AM): maybe I will butthat book is the tip of the iceberg
OnTheRitz (12:05:18 AM): you need the don juan series
OnTheRitz (12:10:25 AM): hey hun he says you snapped at him and then he went off, that there wasn't much of a deep topic going on
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Auto response from OMFG Noah sucks (12:10:25 AM): why am i crying?
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OnTheRitz (12:10:36 AM): just blow it off
OnTheRitz (12:10:40 AM): you ARE wonderful
OnTheRitz (12:11:21 AM): please don't cry
OnTheRitz (12:11:33 AM): or better yet cry your heart out and don't hold it back
OnTheRitz (12:11:43 AM): when you come back you'll feel better and wonder why you were crying
OnTheRitz (12:22:44 AM): tried to call you
OnTheRitz (12:22:56 AM): that guy i think is like the both of us
OnTheRitz (12:23:07 AM): and of course I mean variated situation, same basic principle - pain
OnTheRitz (12:23:44 AM): he liked talking with me so at the end he said to tell you that you're beautiful
OnTheRitz (12:23:53 AM): but he doesn't know you enough to make any kind of judgement
OMFG Noah sucks (12:33:14 AM): don't worry about me. i'm fine.
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Session concluded at 12:34:09 AM
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OnTheRitz (6:27:09 PM): hi
OMFG Noah sucks (6:27:36 PM): meow
OnTheRitz (6:27:44 PM): woof
OMFG Noah sucks (6:43:22 PM): http://www.humanforsale.com/
OMFG Noah sucks (6:43:26 PM): ever taken that?
OMFG Noah sucks (6:43:27 PM): it's funny
OnTheRitz (6:43:37 PM): yeah I didn't score so high though haha
OnTheRitz (6:43:54 PM): how did you do?
OMFG Noah sucks (6:44:14 PM): i don't remember
OMFG Noah sucks (6:44:14 PM): lol
OnTheRitz (6:45:17 PM): you probably blocked it out because you put messed up answers on purpose
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Auto response from OMFG Noah sucks (6:45:17 PM): litter boxin it...
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OnTheRitz (6:45:35 PM): does that mean you're changing the litter box, or you're going to the bathroom
OnTheRitz (6:45:43 PM): oh wait I guess you said you didn't live with your cat haha.
OMFG Noah sucks (6:51:37 PM): i prolly don't remember it cuz it's a long ass number
OMFG Noah sucks (6:51:45 PM): why the fuck would i block it out?
OMFG Noah sucks (6:51:51 PM): and why would my answers be messed up?
OMFG Noah sucks (6:52:31 PM): i just lost any interest i had in you, by the way. i don't take it too well when ppl accuse me of lying
OnTheRitz (6:52:35 PM): for a second I thought about messed up answers just to see what it said
OMFG Noah sucks (6:52:46 PM): nah
OnTheRitz (6:52:48 PM): oh lordy thats not what I meant i was joking
OnTheRitz (6:52:57 PM): don't be so sensitive hun i'm on your side
OMFG Noah sucks (6:53:05 PM): k
OnTheRitz (6:53:24 PM): i wonder what the perfect answers would be
OMFG Noah sucks (6:53:58 PM): Noah
OMFG Noah sucks (6:53:59 PM): jk
OMFG Noah sucks (6:54:00 PM): LOL
OnTheRitz (6:54:11 PM): haha ok i'll let that one slide
OnTheRitz (6:55:35 PM): if thats the case my perfect answer would be a hottie in a leather thong, who likes to swallow, is holding a pizza, while listening to trance music
OnTheRitz (6:55:48 PM): or something similar
OMFG Noah sucks (6:57:04 PM): ...
OMFG Noah sucks (6:57:08 PM): good for you....
OnTheRitz (6:57:28 PM): HA
OnTheRitz (6:57:37 PM): ok that was dumb but go easy on me
OMFG Noah sucks (6:57:56 PM): i don't think i have the patience to go easy on anyone
OMFG Noah sucks (6:57:59 PM): i'm gonna bitch out everyone
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:04 PM): =P
OnTheRitz (6:58:04 PM): alright thats cool
OnTheRitz (6:58:08 PM): :-P
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:14 PM): brandon flaked on me AGAIN
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:18 PM): at least he called this time
OnTheRitz (6:58:24 PM): i guess I'll adjust my Kat meter so when you're merely sarcastic I'll take it as a compliment
OnTheRitz (6:58:32 PM): who was brandon again
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:34 PM): i wish he'd juss come clean with me
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:42 PM): like if he juss wants to fuck me and nothing else
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:45 PM): he should tell me
OMFG Noah sucks (6:58:54 PM): so he can get his booty calls and shit and i don't get attached
OnTheRitz (6:59:02 PM): ah
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:04 PM): he always says, okay i'll come see you at my break
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:08 PM): and he doesn't
OnTheRitz (6:59:11 PM): what a wuss
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:17 PM): i don't say anything about it when i get off work and go find him
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:27 PM): he agrees to come over the my place
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:34 PM): after he gets off work
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:35 PM): he doesn't
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:38 PM): doesn't even call
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:43 PM): i call him today while i'm at work
OnTheRitz (6:59:44 PM): maybe hes gay or something
OnTheRitz (6:59:47 PM): i mean come on
OMFG Noah sucks (6:59:51 PM): and ask him please for an explanation
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:01 PM): and he gave me some lame ass excuse
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:04 PM): i was like fine
OnTheRitz (7:00:14 PM): how lame
OnTheRitz (7:00:22 PM): hes obviously avoiding you for some reason
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:25 PM): come to work half and hour early cuz that's when i get off work. right before he starts
OnTheRitz (7:00:35 PM): maybe hes afraid he likes you too much, or hes gay or something
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:39 PM): so he calls me half and hour before and tells me that he can't come
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:46 PM): he's gotta go to his dad's house or some shit
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:53 PM): he's not gay
OMFG Noah sucks (7:00:59 PM): and i feel brushed off
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:06 PM): that's the third strike for him
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:08 PM): and it SUCKS
OnTheRitz (7:01:11 PM): maybe you intimidate him
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:12 PM): cuz he's beautiful
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:20 PM): he's got the nicest hair
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:23 PM): and he's sweet
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:25 PM): and chill
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:27 PM): and great in bed
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:30 PM): you know?
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:33 PM): like he's awesome
OnTheRitz (7:01:37 PM): ya
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:38 PM): and i'd love to date him...
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:41 PM): but that's three times
OnTheRitz (7:01:52 PM): yeah don't burn any bridges but you shouldn't try so hard
OMFG Noah sucks (7:01:52 PM): i've ALWAYS done the three strikes rule
OnTheRitz (7:01:58 PM): you'll just end up in another bad situation
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:17 PM): but this time i don't wanna do the three strikes rule. cuz i don't want him to be out
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:22 PM): and then there's trent kitty
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:29 PM): i had such a huge crush on trent kitty
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:33 PM): like that was HOPE for me
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:34 PM): you know?
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:38 PM): and then he doesn't show
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:40 PM): and he doesn't show
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:50 PM): and i call him all the fucking time and he never picks up
OnTheRitz (7:02:52 PM): you're trying too hard
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:55 PM): but he's WONDERFUL
OnTheRitz (7:02:55 PM): people are flakes
OMFG Noah sucks (7:02:58 PM): and he's got nice hair
OnTheRitz (7:03:04 PM): just like tom who won't give up on you
OMFG Noah sucks (7:03:05 PM): he's such a sweetheart
OMFG Noah sucks (7:03:09 PM): lol
OMFG Noah sucks (7:03:11 PM): he gave up on me
OMFG Noah sucks (7:03:15 PM): I think he read my diary
OMFG Noah sucks (7:03:17 PM): poor guy
OnTheRitz (7:03:20 PM): i think these guys probalby like you but theres obviously some reason they're not ready for you yet
OnTheRitz (7:03:32 PM): you have to look for emotionally AVAILABLE people
OMFG Noah sucks (7:04:17 PM): but I'm not
OnTheRitz (7:04:32 PM): its hard to tell
OnTheRitz (7:04:33 PM): totally
OMFG Noah sucks (7:04:34 PM): emotionally available to anyone
OMFG Noah sucks (7:04:38 PM): let alone AVAILABLE
OnTheRitz (7:04:38 PM): oh i get it
OnTheRitz (7:05:03 PM): well then just relax a little
OMFG Noah sucks (7:05:09 PM): the only person i'm emotionally available is this guy who sucks in my screen name
OnTheRitz (7:05:10 PM): if the guy is too stupid to bone you then his loss
OnTheRitz (7:05:16 PM): i know
OnTheRitz (7:05:54 PM): damn what i wouldn't give for a cute girl like you to be just friends with, but also to have sex with
OnTheRitz (7:06:02 PM): these guys clearly have mental difficiencies
OnTheRitz (7:06:07 PM): or however you spell it
OMFG Noah sucks (7:07:01 PM): deficiencies is how i spell it
OMFG Noah sucks (7:07:04 PM): lol
OnTheRitz (7:07:13 PM): damn i AM dislexic
OMFG Noah sucks (7:07:24 PM): you might be dyslexic, also
OnTheRitz (7:07:29 PM): shut it
OMFG Noah sucks (7:07:36 PM): lol
OnTheRitz (7:07:49 PM): OMG i thought I spelled it wrong and you were correcting me to make fun
OnTheRitz (7:07:56 PM): i actually saw the 2 differently for a sec
OnTheRitz (7:08:06 PM): (meaning the xic part)
OMFG Noah sucks (7:09:35 PM): wait, what?
OnTheRitz (7:09:43 PM): i don't even know anymor
OMFG Noah sucks (7:09:51 PM): i was correcting you to make fun
OnTheRitz (7:09:55 PM): you're psyching me out to the point I can't even read now
OnTheRitz (7:09:59 PM): yeah I know
OnTheRitz (7:10:24 PM): after I put that I though that, THEN after I hit return I realized there was a misspelling, just in a different spot
OnTheRitz (7:10:40 PM): fuck i had to backspace the shit out of that last line
OMFG Noah sucks (7:10:46 PM): ....
OMFG Noah sucks (7:10:53 PM): why?
OnTheRitz (7:10:59 PM): you have me tripping now
OnTheRitz (7:11:04 PM): i'm hitting all the wrong keys ahaha
OMFG Noah sucks (7:13:49 PM): dork
OnTheRitz (7:13:55 PM): poop
OMFG Noah sucks (7:16:38 PM): what about it?
OnTheRitz (7:16:46 PM): smells funnty
OMFG Noah sucks (7:17:31 PM): are you pooping?
OnTheRitz (7:17:42 PM): yeah i've got the laptop on the shitter
OnTheRitz (7:17:48 PM): its great i have a big screen in here and everything
OnTheRitz (7:17:56 PM): sometimes I come in here when I don't even have to go to the bathroom
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:16 PM): ....
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:22 PM): i miss noah
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:24 PM): lol
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:26 PM): there was one time
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:31 PM): he was talking to me on the phone
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:37 PM): and he was actually in the bathroom taking a shit
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:43 PM): how romantic. =P
OMFG Noah sucks (7:18:44 PM): LOL
OnTheRitz (7:18:46 PM): yeah
OnTheRitz (7:18:50 PM): my friend did that to me
OnTheRitz (7:19:05 PM): he was asking about his computer and I'm like, "go into device manager" and hes like, "I can't I'm taking a shit"
OnTheRitz (7:19:10 PM): thanks dickhead i said
OnTheRitz (7:19:40 PM): an ex-girlfriend of mine had a nightmare while she slept in my room (i was on the computer) and she farted soooo loud
OnTheRitz (7:19:54 PM): i hugged her in her sleep so she would feel better haha
OnTheRitz (7:19:57 PM): but DAMN
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:14 PM): ew
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:22 PM): Noah loved to fart and scare the shit out of me
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:28 PM): cuz i have a VERY good sense of smell
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:32 PM): and his farts are terrible
OnTheRitz (7:21:35 PM): OMG how horrible
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:41 PM): yeah
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:45 PM): but i even miss his farts
OnTheRitz (7:21:49 PM): i like jacking people in simple ways
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:52 PM): i'd even stick around to smell em
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:52 PM): lol
OMFG Noah sucks (7:21:57 PM): i usually dive for cover
OMFG Noah sucks (7:22:02 PM): or run for cover
OnTheRitz (7:22:07 PM): like I'll go up to you and say, "your friend bob wanted to talk to you"
OnTheRitz (7:22:26 PM): then I'll go up to bob and say you wanted to talk to him - then I'll stand back and watch you two just stand in front of each other and go, "whats up"
OnTheRitz (7:22:48 PM): oh thats funny - why is it we need to experience bads things
OnTheRitz (7:23:03 PM): like why can't we just take their word for it and not stick around for the smell
OMFG Noah sucks (7:23:27 PM): he never warns me
OMFG Noah sucks (7:23:30 PM): he juss does it
OMFG Noah sucks (7:23:31 PM): lol
OnTheRitz (7:23:34 PM): silent eh
OMFG Noah sucks (7:25:05 PM): loud most of the time
OMFG Noah sucks (7:25:07 PM): lol
OMFG Noah sucks (7:25:10 PM): just like BOOM!
OnTheRitz (7:25:11 PM): dang
OMFG Noah sucks (7:25:16 PM): and then I'm like EEP!
OMFG Noah sucks (7:25:18 PM): and run
OMFG Noah sucks (7:25:19 PM): lol
OnTheRitz (7:25:21 PM): haha
OnTheRitz (7:25:24 PM): i usually never fart
OnTheRitz (7:25:47 PM): i rarely give into things like onions, spicy food etc
OnTheRitz (7:25:55 PM): but man when I get going I need to lock myself in a room
OMFG Noah sucks (7:27:23 PM): ew
OnTheRitz (7:28:01 PM): sorry haha
OnTheRitz (7:28:06 PM): i guess I make up for it
OnTheRitz (7:28:09 PM): but its very rare
OMFG Noah sucks (7:28:25 PM): ew
OnTheRitz (7:28:33 PM): oh :-P
OnTheRitz (7:28:44 PM): i bet you cut one laughing at me just now
OMFG Noah sucks (7:30:29 PM): no
OMFG Noah sucks (7:30:34 PM): i didn't actually
OMFG Noah sucks (7:30:40 PM): sorry
OnTheRitz (7:30:49 PM): ....
OnTheRitz (7:30:51 PM): hrmph
OMFG Noah sucks (7:38:37 PM): could you please change yer icon?
OMFG Noah sucks (7:38:41 PM): it makes me nervous
OnTheRitz (7:39:37 PM): now why would I want to do that
OMFG Noah sucks (7:40:30 PM): do what?
OnTheRitz (7:41:10 PM): change my icon
OMFG Noah sucks (7:42:03 PM): k
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Session concluded at 7:42:11 PM
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So I block him. Gad yer a bitch, Kat! and I know that Trent won't come see me. And that Zach won't call me. And that Brandon definitely won't come over tonight. I wonder why? I'm nice the THEM? Maybe it's cuz they know that I'm actually a bitch inside and are sparing themselves the pain of having to put up with me. That's what I'd do. SHIET, if I were someone else, I wouldn't be my friend.
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