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meh. geh. sheh. ehh. feh.
July 27, 2003 ~ 12:41 AM
::yawn:: he makes funny little sounds like i do. heh. cute kid. so every second that i spend with matt duncan i feel the same. this kid is perfect. he's everythign i could ever ask for. such a dork. we're good for each other. he adores me so much i can see it in his eyes each time he sees me. i watch him when he works and he's just matt and then he sees me and he just lights up. warm. we act so fucking lovey dovey. lol. lovebirds. and we aren't even close to being in love. far from it. just this comfortable fondness with each other that is felt right down to the bones. i mean, when i'm with matt i still miss noah and i'm still in love with noah and i'm still hurting. maybe. it's just... different with matt. the whole world is different. matt doesn't get angry. ever. noah had all that anger. andy has anger. scares the shit out of me... anger does... mommy; daddy... don't hurt me... noah; andy... don't hurt me... one promised he wouldn't. one swears he won't. i know for a fact that matt won't ever be angry at me. or upset with me. ever. there is too much adoration. just fondness. like you know how some people think little kids are just annoying and they do those things and drive people crazy and those same things that make people hate kids just makes me love them more and make them seem even more adorable to me? i think that's the same idea. i got matt a bumper sticker. it sez "REDNECK". heh. him and his hillbilly accent. he put it on his car. gah he's so fucking cute. i love that kid. i really really do. i want to babysit him. lol. and then sometimes i wanna fuck his brains out. that'll hafta wait a few months, though. eh. and babysitting... yeah... NO. lol. i'm gonna wait for matthew george duncan to grow up. so i can teach him how to REALLY be a kid. like me. teehee!
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