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Recap of tonight
August 20, 2003 ~ 11:15 PM
Well yesterday was Andy's birthday. Today is Jaeson's. Everyone say happy birthday to BlueBull32 on AIM or Yahoo.
So I got my schedule changed for the whole week so I don't work at Casino. {YES!} I ended up working at High Striker today with sexy Joe from Brighton, England and this awesome little black boy Steve. Matt came by after dinner to hang out a bit so I went to take an hour. We ate breadsticks and went to his car to stay warm. I fell asleep in his lap. When he woke me up it was like 9:30P. I was half an hour late! Yeah... Murphy said that he was going to write me up. I'm on my last warning so that means I would be fired. Sue didn't fire me. She said that if I was short even just $5 I'd be fired or "terminated". And as ready as I had been earlier to get fired and as eager as I am to get out of that job, I started crying. Murphy didn't like that... I explained to him about my having insomnia and my needing to pay rent and he let me off the hook. He didn't write me up. So I bought myself some time. I am pretty sure that as long as I don't work Casino, I'll be fine. Hopefully. And while I'm looking for a job right now, I will have a job there. I'm gonna hafta apply to all the places in the mall again. And Longs again, prolly. And I still need to make a resume even though I have nothing to put on it. Meh. So yeah tonight I subtley hit on one guy and was blatantly hit on my about 6, two of them drunk off their asses. I was at the bus stop waiting for the bus... and I caught a glimpse of a boy who was working in the pizza place. Sparked my interest. Really long shaggy hair, even all around, going to right under his ears. Very messy hair but it was sorta cute. He was cute. I told him hello and he smiled. He has a goofy smile. His name is Jerry. He is a Porter kid... He's 21. I'll prolly never see him again. Well, actually, if I take the bus more often I'll prolly see him again. I just meant that... nevermind. You know what I mean. I wasn't even really flirting with him. More like being friendly cuz I wanted a cup of water and I thought he's cute anyway. Meh. Met another boy on the bus. He hit on me. Trevor. My age. UCSC, also. I didn't ask what college he's affiliated with cuz I'll bet you ten dollars it's Stevenson. Noah's college. I'm gonna shut up now and go to bed... the other guys who hit on me are not really worth talking about. I'm tired. I've had a real stressful day. Matt promised that he would come by in the morning to cuddle with me but I don't think he will. I think he'll forget or sleep in or something. I hope he does come. But I truly doubt it. I wonder if there's a boy out there who would cuddle with me at night but not put any moves on me? =P I need one of those. I know why I don't like sleeping with girls... they are too squishy. You'd think that'd be more comfortable but I don't think so. I'd rather cuddle with Matt or Noah or a male whoever any night. Smoothness... I dunno... Juss preference. Girls kiss better. Guys cuddle nicer. I want to fall asleep in Matt's arms and actually sleep WELL. Is that too much to ask? Obviously, it is. Imma try to go to sleep right now. I'm both physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. You don't even know.
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