Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry my convo with Adam May 27, 2002 ~ 7:27 PM Numaphile: hi TiARa 024: hey TiARa 024: How ya been, sweetie? Numaphile: good Numaphile: i went to an 80's club last night TiARa 024: where? Numaphile: hollywood blvd TiARa 024: did anything bad happen? heh TiARa 024: or r u done with tha whole bad luck thang? Numaphile: nothing i consider bad Numaphile: i hope im done with bad luck TiARa 024: meet any hot gurls? TiARa 024: er did u get laid. =P TiARa 024: am i being nosy? TiARa 024: im sorry TiARa 024: i have this thing right now where im really really horny TiARa 024: but im single Numaphile: its ok TiARa 024: so im really frustrated TiARa 024: and im reading erotica by Anne Rice TiARa 024: so that doesnt help Numaphile: u know what they say sex can wait masturbate TiARa 024: hahaha TiARa 024: nu uh TiARa 024: no mas TiARa 024: masturbation's lost its fun Numaphile: but i do sympathize with your problem TiARa 024: i wanna have sex TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: ur the reason for my problem =P Numaphile: i spoiled you with good sex, now you have to have it? TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: basically TiARa 024: all ur fault Numaphile: so what do you want me to do about it TiARa 024: come here TiARa 024: seeing as im home alone and really really horny TiARa 024: u shud come here Numaphile: when do your parents get home? TiARa 024: like 10 TiARa 024: y? TiARa 024: oh ur friends were screwing around with me agn Numaphile: so u want me to go to your house? TiARa 024: could u please tell them its not appreciated TiARa 024: lol Numaphile: ok TiARa 024: i wasnt serious. im horny as hell but i still wont have sex with someone who isnt my bf TiARa 024: otherwise i could have had sex by now Numaphile: so you dont want me to come over TiARa 024: oh trust me i do TiARa 024: but ur not my bf anymore so i wont have sex with u TiARa 024: and if i did TiARa 024: i would regret it TiARa 024: and feel like a slut Numaphile: just because of a superficial label that came about over jelousy during evolution TiARa 024: hahahaha TiARa 024: yup TiARa 024: precisely TiARa 024: hey, that superficial label actually means something to me, u know TiARa 024: i dunno y Numaphile: so u really want that label... TiARa 024: yes i do TiARa 024: it means something to me TiARa 024: like saying im a nice person TiARa 024: labels make society go TiARa 024: i stopped having casual sex because it made me feel like a slut TiARa 024: and people thought i was because of the way i dress TiARa 024: labels can hurt TiARa 024: its rather have the 'girlfriend' label than the 'slut' label, u know? Numaphile: ok fine you win TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: wut do i win? Numaphile: me TiARa 024: huh? TiARa 024: ur not Adam, are you Numaphile: i am TiARa 024: thats wut u always say Numaphile: i know TiARa 024: even when ur not adam Numaphile: i am TiARa 024: i doubt adam would take me back Numaphile: none of my friends are over at this time anyways TiARa 024: really TiARa 024: ur gonna b my bf TiARa 024: have sex with me TiARa 024: and break up with me agn TiARa 024: well TiARa 024: thats wut im thinking Numaphile: its the risk that you have to take Numaphile: or not TiARa 024: call me Numaphile: your cell or home phone Numaphile: by the way i got a cell phone TiARa 024: really? TiARa 024: that is so awesome TiARa 024: can i have the number? TiARa 024: i thot u hated cell phones TiARa 024: lol TiARa 024: leashes remember? TiARa 024: call my home phone Numaphile: just call 661 478 5889 TiARa 024: i dont have long distance TiARa 024: so ull hafta call me at home Numaphile: im kinda busy right now to call you at home TiARa 024: juss for 2 sec so i can hear ur voice and c if ur who u say u r Numaphile: your house #? Numaphile: what is it Numaphile: ill program it into my phone Numaphile: any day now TiARa 024: i thot u had my house # Numaphile: i dont feel like looking for it TiARa 024: or u could b jack TiARa 024: and u dont know it TiARa 024: and never had it Numaphile: just give me the fucking number so i dont have to look all over the place, jack isnt even here this weekend TiARa 024: calm down, honey TiARa 024: 6269634215 TiARa 024: my sister is home anyway TiARa 024: however, shell b glued to the tv TiARa 024: and ur not calling... Numaphile: im programing my phone Numaphile: now im calling TiARa 024: i miss TiARa 024: u TiARa 024: =P TiARa 024: r u really gonna take me back? or were u juss playing with me Numaphile: if you really want that Numaphile: label Numaphile: i can give it to you TiARa 024: but will it mean anything to you? TiARa 024: if its nothing to you then i dont want it TiARa 024: sex isnt worth it TiARa 024: btw i would still like to take some.. naughty pix... if ur gonna get back with me Numaphile: no i cant let you take naughty pics of me Auto response from TiARa 024: Sorry! I'm busy right now. See how well you know me ---> Take my Quiz! Email me @ [email protected] Call me @ 1 (626) 589 ~ 2198 Check out my SubProfile and sign my guestbook. TiARa 024: how come? Numaphile: how come what Numaphile: because... TiARa 024: no naughty pix TiARa 024: ??? TiARa 024: i juss want them for myself TiARa 024: i promise i wont put them up all over the internet TiARa 024: :-) TiARa 024: so wuts ur reason that i cant have any naughty pix of ya? Numaphile: i think its kinda degrading to me Numaphile: to be seen as a sex object Numaphile: if i was being painted nude or something that would be completely different TiARa 024: ah TiARa 024: well i just wanted something to remember u by TiARa 024: for when u dump me again TiARa 024: which is inevitable and we both know it Numaphile: something to masturbate too Numaphile: j/m TiARa 024: actually TiARa 024: yeah TiARa 024: lol Numaphile: oh TiARa 024: jk Numaphile: i see TiARa 024: hahahah TiARa 024: im juss kidding TiARa 024: i dont like masturbation anymore TiARa 024: sex is way too much better Numaphile: ya TiARa 024: wait, so r u taking me back? Numaphile: might as well i have no one else TiARa 024: hahaha TiARa 024: last reasort TiARa 024: resort TiARa 024: i feel... TiARa 024: i dunno Numaphile: take it or leave it TiARa 024: do u care about me at all? TiARa 024: or u juss want someone to have sex with Numaphile: i could have sex anytime i want' TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: me too TiARa 024: well TiARa 024: not really TiARa 024: i want a bf to have sex with TiARa 024: but so u care about me? TiARa 024: do TiARa 024: i dont want a bf just to have sex with TiARa 024: i want the emotional aspect of the relationship too TiARa 024: and ur not answering. can i assume that I am still single? Numaphile: i can give you what you want TiARa 024: wut is it that u are referring to? TiARa 024: that i want Numaphile: emotional and sexual satisfaction TiARa 024: okay, u win TiARa 024: can u not smoke when ur around me though? i really really don't like ie TiARa 024: it Numaphile: nevermind then Auto response from TiARa 024: I'm writing in my diary. You can read my diary here. TiARa 024: sheesh TiARa 024: u put cigarettes above me TiARa 024: i was juss seeing ur reaction Numaphile: im kidding TiARa 024: it was worth a try TiARa 024: u r TiARa 024: so u wont smoke around me? TiARa 024: ??? TiARa 024: and he's off Numaphile: im here TiARa 024: okay TiARa 024: so u wont smoke around me? TiARa 024: i mean i can live with it TiARa 024: but i really dont like it Numaphile: not even weed? TiARa 024: weed is fine TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: i juss hate tobacco TiARa 024: u can smoke weed all u want Numaphile: cloves? Numaphile: pipe tobacco? cigars? TiARa 024: hahaha TiARa 024: no cigarettes TiARa 024: if u really wanna do the pipe tobacco thing TiARa 024: u hafta promise to let me take pix TiARa 024: lol TiARa 024: and im sure u can survive without cigars TiARa 024: no cigarettes or cigars TiARa 024: please? Numaphile: im going to be completely honest with you for a second... Numaphile: you might not like what im going to say Numaphile: but sex has been a key factor in our relationship TiARa 024: yes Numaphile: it was especially valuable to me because i had a broken heart from my ex Numaphile: and i am greatful for it Numaphile: and we definitely have had some good times TiARa 024: im glad i could help Numaphile: but... Numaphile: i dont think im what you are looking for in a relationship TiARa 024: so u dont want me back? Numaphile: and in reality i never took it as serious as you TiARa 024: i knew that Numaphile: in reality i know that if i took you back, the main reason would be sex Numaphile: and that isnt a very nice thing of me to do TiARa 024: ah TiARa 024: so ur not taking me back Numaphile: and i know i wouldnt take it seriously Numaphile: i never really did TiARa 024: but how come? TiARa 024: u just dont like me? Numaphile: you see me and you are different TiARa 024: ha Numaphile: i hate to say it but you dont fit in with my click TiARa 024: thats the understatement of the century Numaphile: my mentality or my beliefs Numaphile: i know its an awful thing to say TiARa 024: ive never been near ur clique so how do u know i dont fit? Numaphile: but ure not my type Numaphile: thats why i never really took it serious TiARa 024: wuts ur mentality and wut are ur beliefs Numaphile: u see you dont really know the extent of my crazyness TiARa 024: uve never shown me Numaphile: what i consider a real fun time is driving 90 on mulhuland drive with a head full of weed and a belly full of liquor Numaphile: reckless behavior is just how i am Numaphile: im one of those people born to die Numaphile: u know TiARa 024: and y do u think i wouldnt think thats fun? Numaphile: im crazy into the los angeles electronica scene Numaphile: ive had several bands and im used to performing live Numaphile: im moving to hollywood with my friends Numaphile: im a rebel TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: i guess Numaphile: you are an asian brainer TiARa 024: im not TiARa 024: ur smarter than me TiARa 024: so dont even go there Numaphile: you dont get my jokes, you dont understand my style TiARa 024: im not that smart TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: i do get ut jokes TiARa 024: just not online TiARa 024: cuz i cant tell ur tone Numaphile: you dont see the vision that i see, a twisted american vision of reckless behavior and freedome Numaphile: you have basically no freedom TiARa 024: well TiARa 024: until june TiARa 024: like Numaphile: you are a kid and im a criminal TiARa 024: im not a kid TiARa 024: and ur not a criminal TiARa 024: ur not even giving me a chance Numaphile: see you dont see things how they are TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: yeah i do Numaphile: your not what im looking for in a serious relationship TiARa 024: the reasong y i wanted to b with u is cuz of ur craziness TiARa 024: i thought u could show me a good time Numaphile: you would be lost if you hung out with me and my friends Numaphile: not friends like mat TiARa 024: wut are u looking for in a serious relationship then? Numaphile: but my real friend Numaphile: s TiARa 024: well howabout let me hang out with them a few times an we;ll see Numaphile: you wouldnt know what we were talking about, or what we were doing TiARa 024: how do u know!?! TiARa 024: u dont TiARa 024: well Numaphile: u cant you see we hang out at hours that you would be sleeping TiARa 024: its called school TiARa 024: i do need to wake up at 6 Numaphile: when you hang out with us its freedom that you dont have Numaphile: we have all graduated Numaphile: school TiARa 024: but i will when im done with school Numaphile: even when we technically went to school we never even went Numaphile: i dont think you want our lifestyle Numaphile: and im saving you from it TiARa 024: ive had ur lifestyle, honey TiARa 024: well something of that sort TiARa 024: im not all innocent like u think i am Numaphile: no i dont think you have Numaphile: i know u have done your share of drugs, but you quit, we will never quit drugs TiARa 024: okay Numaphile: its a big part of us TiARa 024: thats u guys TiARa 024: i can still hang out and not do drugs TiARa 024: or who knows, i might start again Numaphile: its a whole crazy lifestyle that you cannot be a part of you just dont have the mentallity Numaphile: im sorry im saving you from disaster Numaphile: its for your own good Numaphile: i give you the option... TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: u think u know me so well Numaphile: to remain in your previous place Numaphile: where you where Numaphile: like before TiARa 024: u obviously never tried to get to know me TiARa 024: before what? Numaphile: i never took it serious TiARa 024: i dont understand why TiARa 024: all ur reasons are dumb because they are temporary TiARa 024: my lack of freedom that is Numaphile: because you arent on the same wavelength TiARa 024: but u dont knwo that Numaphile: and you arent socially intellegent enough TiARa 024: cuz u never tried to see if i was Numaphile: im the rebel and you are the girl TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: im a rebellious girl thank you very much TiARa 024: and i am almost 18 TiARa 024: i know wut i am doing TiARa 024: i know whats going on Numaphile: you had me fooled TiARa 024: im not as naive and stupid as u think TiARa 024: thats cuz i knew u werent taking me seriously Numaphile: you are trendy TiARa 024: so i wasnt taking u seriously TiARa 024: lol TiARa 024: thats funny TiARa 024: tell that to people who know me Numaphile: im pretty much goth TiARa 024: tbeyll laff u outta cali TiARa 024: ur nto goth TiARa 024: ur as goth as i am Numaphile: and i dress the part TiARa 024: and i used to b wiccan TiARa 024: lol Numaphile: ha TiARa 024: not really Numaphile: what a joke that is TiARa 024: the first time i met u u were wearing skater clothes Numaphile: because i wanted to appeal to you TiARa 024: i wasnt even gonna go out with u cuz i thought u were a skater Numaphile: and not scare you away TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: good job TiARa 024: i only decided to go for u after i asked if u were a skater and u sed no Numaphile: bullshit TiARa 024: i hate the trendy ppl TiARa 024: yes TiARa 024: thats one of the first things i asked u Numaphile: well you just arent my type and you never will be, you cant convince me otherwise TiARa 024: haha Numaphile: so i will be back with you but i still wont take it serious TiARa 024: but u never gave me a chance Numaphile: no because u are not what im looking for TiARa 024: wut r u looking for? TiARa 024: u dont even know, really. I could be what you are looking for. and if not. i can change Numaphile: thats personal, and im not going to tell you because no matter what i say you are going to convince me that you are like that or you can change to that TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: i could TiARa 024: i can Numaphile: and thats really desperate TiARa 024: i might be like that TiARa 024: and u juss dont see it TiARa 024: no Numaphile: you arent TiARa 024: im not desperate Numaphile: ok then leave me alone if you arent desperate TiARa 024: i could have another bf by this evening if i wanted TiARa 024: 'lol TiARa 024: so u only want to date a desperate gurl? Numaphile: go for it mabey he would take you seriously TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: i dont want anyone else TiARa 024: i like u Numaphile: ok i said it how it is Numaphile: sometimes this shit just doesnt work out TiARa 024: maybe if u give me a chance Numaphile: but dont take it serious Numaphile: sorry... Numaphile: you dont even know me TiARa 024: i know u well enough TiARa 024: u talk about ur life all the time Numaphile: and i know u well enough TiARa 024: no TiARa 024: u dont know anything about me Numaphile: i give you an abridged version TiARa 024: and u never even asked for my version Numaphile: ok i dont know anything about you Numaphile: whatever TiARa 024: u know nothing about me Numaphile: i know more then you think TiARa 024: and ur making all these decisions based on that Numaphile: please ure not my type theirs hundreds of other people out there TiARa 024: i liked u cuz u were crazy. that appeals to me Numaphile: if you want a fake relationship that is sex oriented then fine thats what i can give you TiARa 024: thats wut a want TiARa 024: but no emotional aspect Numaphile: not to serious of emotion TiARa 024: u know thats not what i want. cant u just get to know me and give me a chance? TiARa 024: i dont get into relationships for just sex anymore TiARa 024: that part of my life is over TiARa 024: ive grown up Numaphile: well then im not what you are looking for TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: u r TiARa 024: u juss dont know it TiARa 024: i know exactly wut i want TiARa 024: who i want TiARa 024: in this aspect Numaphile: you cant have me Numaphile: emotionally TiARa 024: u wont even let me try? Numaphile: no matter what you say Numaphile: no TiARa 024: tell me how u want me to be Numaphile: stop that shit TiARa 024: i've changed for people before TiARa 024: i can do it again TiARa 024: ive done it all my life TiARa 024: i can make myself ideal Numaphile: have you ever heard of being yourself? TiARa 024: well thats wut i am Numaphile: mabey that is what you should be TiARa 024: i live my life to make others happy TiARa 024: thats me Numaphile: thats the most phlagmatic thing ive ever heard TiARa 024: haha TiARa 024: yeah TiARa 024: ur sose ta b phlegmatic also Numaphile: im phlagmatic but at least im myself TiARa 024: i am too TiARa 024: im me TiARa 024: theres no one else like me Numaphile: but u want to change for me TiARa 024: haha Numaphile: please just get the hint TiARa 024: i want u Numaphile: i can give you a person to talk to and a person to fuck but nothing as far as emotion TiARa 024: but how come u wont even try? Numaphile: friendship mabey even Numaphile: but no romantic serious emotion cause i just dont get that feeling from you Numaphile: and nothing you could say or do could change that TiARa 024: my point is that maybe there could be something and ur just not giving me a chance Numaphile: so you need to choose whether you want me as a fuck buddy/friend whatever Numaphile: their cant be cause i dont feel it Numaphile: and i know myself enough to know i will never have serious feelings for you TiARa 024: how can u b so sure? TiARa 024: on so cold Numaphile: because i know Numaphile: its the truth TiARa 024: u cant b a little more open-minded? TiARa 024: i thought u were better than that TiARa 024: im sorry TiARa 024: i misjudged you TiARa 024: i thought you were a good person who can see beyond your own personal beliefs TiARa 024: I'll talk to you later. TiARa 024: I'm gonna think about all this a bit TiARa 024: Maybe ur not really as 'worth it' as I thought you were. 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