Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry if i weren't so tired i'd cry April 21, 2003 ~ 3:29 PM i can't make the appt. all my crap that i filled out and stuff is packed in boxes. i won't be able to find em til i unpack. after i get to grace's house. god dammit. plus there is no way that eric and chelsea are gonna get up at 10 for me tomorrow. DAMMIT. this is all noah's fault. he has flung his hatred and wrath upon my being. so now everything is crap. lol. i'm jk. i've just decided to use him as a scapegoat for everything. since this is all his fault. lol. why am i so in love with him? if i weren't so in lvoe with him i'd hate his guts for putting me through this shit. i hope i don't become like my mother... anger with the depression... so much anger. i don't want the anger. but maybe it would feel better than the pain and the sadness.... maybe that's why my mother is how she is. too much pain. direct the energy somewhere else... and just... hate. Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry ~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~ �MY 5 MOST RECENT ENTRIES� August 02, 2004 [3:29 AM] - Took the HELL test again... July 29, 2004 [3:57 AM] - Forgiveness... Meh. Lol July 28, 2004 [4:54 PM] - Emotional Limbo... *bends over backwards* July 28, 2004 [1:29 PM] - the miracle of Moo July 28, 2004 [3:05 AM] - The sound of the ocean.... .