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True love, suck my balls.
April 21, 2003 ~ 10:37 PM
VEGG1E Kat: hey, yoshi
Auto response from XvMidNiteMagevx: AFK!!!! ill be back in a bit.. jus leave me a lil message
XvMidNiteMagevx: *meow* ^_^ :hug:
Auto response from VEGG1E Kat: I just don't give a fuck anymore.
VEGG1E Kat: is NoahDekkers online? XvMidNiteMagevx: not sure.. lemme check. VEGG1E Kat: thanks XvMidNiteMagevx: nope.. sowee. VEGG1E Kat: iss okay VEGG1E Kat: hey XvMidNiteMagevx: :-( VEGG1E Kat: i've always been alone VEGG1E Kat: always VEGG1E Kat: ... VEGG1E Kat: and i made it VEGG1E Kat: tried to kill myself 5 times but still VEGG1E Kat: i made it XvMidNiteMagevx: O.o VEGG1E Kat: then i met noah and i wasn't alone VEGG1E Kat: now i'm alone again VEGG1E Kat: i think my alone and your alone are different though VEGG1E Kat: i'm alone even when i'm at the mall surrounded by a million people XvMidNiteMagevx: believe me.. its not. VEGG1E Kat: for once in my life i wasn't alone... i always thought that there might be a possibility of a true love or a companion or a soulmate VEGG1E Kat: wishful thinking on my part VEGG1E Kat: very wishful thinking VEGG1E Kat: we're always alone VEGG1E Kat: if we can't do it for ourselves we're screwed XvMidNiteMagevx: stop beating yourself up.. it only makes the hurt that much worst. VEGG1E Kat: but if we can't do it by ourselves we're screwed VEGG1E Kat: cuz when it comes down to it, no one can do it for you XvMidNiteMagevx: :nods: VEGG1E Kat: everyone is self-sufficient to some degree or another VEGG1E Kat: cuz we are always alone VEGG1E Kat: forever and always VEGG1E Kat: i used to love those two words VEGG1E Kat: now i hate them VEGG1E Kat: i fought so hard to just live and worked my ass off to learn VEGG1E Kat: but when it comes down to it, i was really looking for love VEGG1E Kat: love is to me what god is to most people VEGG1E Kat: it gave me somethign to believe in VEGG1E Kat: so even though they are alone they have god. and even though i was alone i had love VEGG1E Kat: something to look forward to VEGG1E Kat: heaven VEGG1E Kat: a reason VEGG1E Kat: there's no such thing as god VEGG1E Kat: i no longer think that there is such thing as true love, either XvMidNiteMagevx: there is.. you just need the patiants and strength of will to find it. VEGG1E Kat: cuz if love were real, i would be revising my second essay in my dorm room three floors above noah dekkers right now XvMidNiteMagevx: hey kat.. are you downstairs? VEGG1E Kat: not eating cold mac and cheese wondering what to write for my first essay and holdign back tears XvMidNiteMagevx: i have to get off cuz sean needs to use the comp.. you want me to come down if you need someone to talk to? VEGG1E Kat: if love were real i would be kissing noah goodnight every night at 11 when i go to bed VEGG1E Kat: nah VEGG1E Kat: i have trouble talking VEGG1E Kat: writing is what i do best VEGG1E Kat: =] XvMidNiteMagevx: love is real. true love is hard to find. you may have truely loved him, but he may not share those same feelings. VEGG1E Kat: there is no such thing as true love VEGG1E Kat: i found that out the hard way XvMidNiteMagevx: know that true love exists.. XvMidNiteMagevx: your just giving up too early VEGG1E Kat: yoshi? XvMidNiteMagevx: you still have your whole life ahead of you. its to early to quit VEGG1E Kat: i gave up too late VEGG1E Kat: i realized too late VEGG1E Kat: well i suspected but still decided to follow my heart VEGG1E Kat: now i no longer have my heart XvMidNiteMagevx: you do.. its just broken.. it needs time to mend. VEGG1E Kat: i don't have it VEGG1E Kat: i gave it to noah VEGG1E Kat: i'll never take it back VEGG1E Kat: because if what he and i had wasn't true love then i cannot believe in the idea VEGG1E Kat: it just doesn't exist then VEGG1E Kat: now let sean have his computer, sweetie XvMidNiteMagevx: no.. because you and noah arent together you dont WANT true love to exist. VEGG1E Kat: ? XvMidNiteMagevx: anyway.. ill talk to you later. XvMidNiteMagevx: think about it. XvMidNiteMagevx signed off at 10:36:12 PM. Trust me, Yoshi, I want more than anything for true love to exist. Cuz that love defined me.
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