Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry I am so fucking self centered. April 22, 2004 ~ 11:13 PM I work too much for the amount of sleep I get. I hate my mom. I miss Matt. I want my tent back. I don't wanna cry anymore. I wanna die. I forget why I moved here again. I wanna stop cutting. I am not masochistic anymore. I wanna stop hurting. I can't shower cuz the cuts on my arm sting too much. I want Matt to have time for me. I can't feel my legs. I want Matt to come visit me. I need to sleep more than 3 hours a night. I want my clothes. I am dying inside. I blame my mother. I am falling apart. I have a great job. I need Matt to help me through this. I need Noah to be my friend. I am so very lost. I need Jen to stop being a shallow bitch. I need my mom to stop being a royal bitch. I am so very stressed. I need my dad to get a clue. I need everyone to stop telling me what the fuck to do with my own fucking life. I need every single person in my life to stop telling me to leave Matt. I LOVE MATT! I am so very alone. I am desperate and devastated and distressed. I always put up with everyone's shit. I don't know how much longer I will be alive. I always give everyone a chance. I took away my own chance. If I die I will stop hurting myself. I die inside because my mother strips me down to my inner child and kicks the shit out of it. Do you understand? Last Entry - Next Entry - Newest Entry ~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~ �MY 5 MOST RECENT ENTRIES� August 02, 2004 [3:29 AM] - Took the HELL test again... July 29, 2004 [3:57 AM] - Forgiveness... Meh. Lol July 28, 2004 [4:54 PM] - Emotional Limbo... *bends over backwards* July 28, 2004 [1:29 PM] - the miracle of Moo July 28, 2004 [3:05 AM] - The sound of the ocean.... .