OMG Kat, this is SO your song!! Listen to it!!! - Jen May 16, 2004 ~ 12:10 AM
Jen introduced me to a song today. She said it fits me perfectly and how much I love Matt... Even JEN knows how much I love that kid. Heh. And she doesn't even want me to be with him. It really made me wanna cry. EVERYONE knows that me and Matt should be together. Why doesn't MATT?!?! I mean I called his friend Richard Lopez today... out of no where really... I dunno why... And he's like "You and Matt broke up?!?! But you two were perfect!" I was like... "I KNOW!!!" and started bawling like I do sometimes... Ugh. I'm so pathetic. God damn I love that boy. And on another note, my friend Aaron made me smile today. He asked for my number... I'm gonna have to run that by Matt... Someone said this to me the other night-"Kat, you're not even his girlfriend and yer still his bitch..." Lol. Which is... well... true... but how am I gonna hope to ever get him back if I don't do what made him happy when we were together? Mer? Exactly. Didn't think so. Lol. So I doubt I'll be able to give Aaron my phone number... And I dunno if I can call him... But Matt might not care anymore. Anywho I hope Aaron doesn't mind my quoting his email a little. It made me laff and that's a rarity nowadays for me. I'm always just missin Matt. And loving him. And sad... Grrr... I'm sorry to hear about you and Matt. You seemed really happy. No news on the dating front here. All the girls just want to be my friend, even the strippers: "Oh no, just put that money away and tell me another story..."And then I got emails from Matty Umstead... that surfer dude that I liked so very much when I was up at UCSC. Before Noah. That was a good experience for me. That kid was everything I'd love for me to be. Just beautiful and sexy and perfect and charismatic and flirty and charming and... ugh... so fucking T-dog it almost made me sick. But you can't help LOVING him. Cuz he was too damned friendly and always had such a big smile on his face. Stupid wonderful sponsered surfers. Lol. I am SO glad me and him never actually dated. I woulda never met Noah. Which triggered a chain of events that led to meeting MATT. And we all know I can't live without Matt! ~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~ �MY 5 MOST RECENT ENTRIES� August 02, 2004 [3:29 AM] - Took the HELL test again... July 29, 2004 [3:57 AM] - Forgiveness... Meh. Lol July 28, 2004 [4:54 PM] - Emotional Limbo... *bends over backwards* July 28, 2004 [1:29 PM] - the miracle of Moo July 28, 2004 [3:05 AM] - The sound of the ocean.... |