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Here kitty kitty kitty. Come here, kitty... Please?
July 06, 2003 ~ 2:52 PM
He once told me "I love you" over the telephone. I thought he meant it. I think he lied. Maybe. I dunno. I dunno anything anymore. Well... not concerning Trent Kitty anyway... I'm so fucking confuzzled. At least I'm not emotionally deteriorating because of Noah any longer. Trent usurped Noah's place in my head quite tactfully I might say.
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:06 AM): so i'm gonna be pathetic and desperate like and IM you even though i promised myself and my housemate that i wouldn't
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:10 AM): meow
Trent Kitty (1:51:19 AM): =(
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:29 AM): so
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:32 AM): where the fuck are you
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:37 AM): sorry if i'm a little rude
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:40 AM): i'm really fucked up
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:42 AM): been drinking
Trent Kitty (1:51:46 AM): yea?
Trent Kitty (1:51:47 AM): heh
Trent Kitty (1:51:50 AM): like the message you left me
OMFG Noah sucks (1:51:51 AM): since i figured i wouldn't be doing any driving tonight
OMFG Noah sucks (1:52:00 AM): what did i say?
Trent Kitty (1:52:29 AM): idk
Trent Kitty (1:52:33 AM): you started rambling
OMFG Noah sucks (1:52:41 AM): trent
Trent Kitty (1:52:42 AM): like you set the phone down or something
Trent Kitty (1:52:46 AM): kat..
OMFG Noah sucks (1:52:55 AM): i don't understand
OMFG Noah sucks (1:52:59 AM): do you wanna meet me or not
OMFG Noah sucks (1:53:00 AM): be HONEST
OMFG Noah sucks (1:53:09 AM): cuz if you don't it'll juss hurt more in the end
OMFG Noah sucks (1:53:13 AM): and you'd be leading me on
Trent Kitty (1:53:20 AM): i know
OMFG Noah sucks (1:53:57 AM): k
OMFG Noah sucks (1:54:01 AM): so do you wanna meet me or not
Trent Kitty (1:54:14 AM): drinking and driving is bad
OMFG Noah sucks (1:54:19 AM): i know
OMFG Noah sucks (1:54:32 AM): but i passed my driving test drunk
OMFG Noah sucks (1:54:37 AM): so for some weird reason
Trent Kitty (1:54:43 AM): heh
OMFG Noah sucks (1:54:48 AM): i'm one of those ppl who drive perfectly while they're drunk
OMFG Noah sucks (1:54:50 AM): however
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:01 AM): the car that i begged to borrow today is my housemates
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:06 AM): and he hates lending out his car
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:15 AM): i had to be super convincing
Trent Kitty (1:55:16 AM): oh?
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:18 AM): and he finally said yes
Trent Kitty (1:55:22 AM): awwww
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:23 AM): and i could fucking find you
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:27 AM): thanks, trent
Trent Kitty (1:55:32 AM): andy's nice
Trent Kitty (1:55:33 AM): find me?
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:39 AM): i like andy. a lot
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:41 AM): i love that kid
Trent Kitty (1:55:42 AM): did you come to my house
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:45 AM): he's one of the best ppl i know
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:47 AM): no way
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:52 AM): i tried calling you first
Trent Kitty (1:55:52 AM): uhm
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:57 AM): to see if yo9u were at your fucking house
OMFG Noah sucks (1:55:59 AM): you never pick up
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:03 AM): so i gave up
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:05 AM): okay?
Trent Kitty (1:56:09 AM): it prolly was busy
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:13 AM): i'm sick and tired of being hurt
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:13 AM): no
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:18 AM): you juss didn't pick up
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:23 AM): and i don't like leaving messages
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:32 AM): i feel stupid talking to a machine
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:38 AM): so i didn't
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:48 AM): i got you're message machine 13 times
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:50 AM): er no
OMFG Noah sucks (1:56:52 AM): 12
Trent Kitty (1:56:58 AM): wha
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:00 AM): and then i got a busy signal 4 times
Trent Kitty (1:57:08 AM): uhm
Trent Kitty (1:57:17 AM): it's kewl just hate me
Trent Kitty (1:57:19 AM): I do.
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:27 AM): i called you 16 times today
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:31 AM): i don't hate you
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:35 AM): that's the fucking problem
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:38 AM): i'm in love with you
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:39 AM): okay?
Trent Kitty (1:57:44 AM): =( don't be
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:46 AM): shit
OMFG Noah sucks (1:57:48 AM): fine
Trent Kitty (1:58:28 AM): don't talk to me drunk either
OMFG Noah sucks (1:58:32 AM): just be honest with me
OMFG Noah sucks (1:58:38 AM): tell me if you wanna meet me or not
OMFG Noah sucks (1:58:45 AM): tell me if you are interested in me AT ALL
Trent Kitty (1:59:01 AM): yea I like u
Trent Kitty (1:59:06 AM): u know dat
Trent Kitty (1:59:09 AM): *sigh*
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:14 AM): that's the problem
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:15 AM): i don't
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:18 AM): i DON'T
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:21 AM): cuz you say it
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:25 AM): but you don't fucking SHOW it
Trent Kitty (1:59:35 AM): yeah
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:36 AM): i told you last night that i was gonna go get you today
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:39 AM): and you weren't fucking there
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:42 AM): all fucking day
Trent Kitty (1:59:43 AM): what
Trent Kitty (1:59:48 AM): you told me that?
Trent Kitty (1:59:49 AM): dude
OMFG Noah sucks (1:59:51 AM): YES
Trent Kitty (1:59:52 AM): I don't remember that
Trent Kitty (2:00:01 AM): honestly
Trent Kitty (2:01:33 AM): fuck
Trent Kitty (2:01:34 AM): I'm sorry
Trent Kitty (2:01:59 AM): got into it with my parents this morning
OMFG Noah sucks (2:02:20 AM): did you get the sleep that you wanted?
Trent Kitty (2:02:46 AM): why does it seem like there's 24 days in a real life day.. and a week feels like a year
Trent Kitty (2:02:49 AM): what sleep
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:08 AM): okay
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:10 AM): listen here
Trent Kitty (2:03:15 AM): oh I had company and we chilled and drank coffe and then I hella crashed without even knowing I fell asleep
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:16 AM): you are not going fucking anywhere tomorrow
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:17 AM): okay?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:22 AM): you're coming to santa cruz
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:26 AM): and going home on monday
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:29 AM): i don't care what you say
Trent Kitty (2:03:39 AM): scaring me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:39 AM): i'll be there tomorrow and i'm gonna wait for yer ass
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:45 AM): i don't care if i call and yer not there
Trent Kitty (2:03:50 AM): seriously
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:51 AM): hm
Trent Kitty (2:03:53 AM): stop it
Trent Kitty (2:03:55 AM): scaring me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:03:59 AM): k
Trent Kitty (2:04:04 AM): =(
Trent Kitty (2:04:08 AM): fuck..
OMFG Noah sucks (2:04:09 AM): how am i scaring you
Trent Kitty (2:04:11 AM): you do'nt want to be aroudn me
Trent Kitty (2:04:41 AM): I've lost everyone in about a week's time
OMFG Noah sucks (2:04:47 AM): what do you mean?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:04:56 AM): i want to be near you more than anything in the world
Trent Kitty (2:04:58 AM): it's like everything I touch dies
OMFG Noah sucks (2:05:03 AM): i wanna feel you in my arms
Trent Kitty (2:05:12 AM): you're sweet
OMFG Noah sucks (2:05:15 AM): your mouth on mine...
Trent Kitty (2:05:20 AM): but i'm afraid to fuck up things
OMFG Noah sucks (2:05:25 AM): i want to feel your skin against mine
OMFG Noah sucks (2:05:29 AM): how am i scaring you?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:05:34 AM): cuz i'm in love with you?
Trent Kitty (2:05:44 AM): I donno
OMFG Noah sucks (2:05:53 AM): a screen name? an internet profile? a voice on the telephone?
Trent Kitty (2:06:01 AM): telling me I'm not going anywhere
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:10 AM): you are not leaving your house
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:16 AM): cuz you are coming to santa cruz
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:21 AM): i was supposed to see you today
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:28 AM): i was so fucking excited about that
Trent Kitty (2:06:31 AM): how am I going to santa cruz if I'm not leaving the house
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:43 AM): i'm going to pick you up
Trent Kitty (2:06:49 AM): well if you were supposed to see me...
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:51 AM): you're not leaving until i say so
Trent Kitty (2:06:53 AM): when am I going to remember this conversation
OMFG Noah sucks (2:06:58 AM): huh?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:07:00 AM): what do you mean?
Trent Kitty (2:07:16 AM): the one where I said you're gonna get me or whatever yesterday
Trent Kitty (2:07:21 AM): yesterday being saturday
Trent Kitty (2:07:23 AM): i think..
Trent Kitty (2:07:24 AM): right?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:07:25 AM): ...
OMFG Noah sucks (2:07:27 AM): ugh
OMFG Noah sucks (2:07:29 AM): brb
Trent Kitty (2:07:32 AM): what
Trent Kitty (2:08:11 AM): whered u disappear to
Trent Kitty (2:10:48 AM): ok...
Trent Kitty (2:10:53 AM): i HATE that
Trent Kitty (2:10:59 AM): oh btw
Trent Kitty (2:11:18 AM): you called my parents at either 11 pm or 4am waking them up.. wtf???
OMFG Noah sucks (2:11:37 AM): OMFG Noah sucks (11:40:14 PM): can't you come sleep over here?
OMFG Noah sucks (11:40:22 PM): O:-)
Trent Kitty (11:40:37 PM): hehe
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:03 PM): really
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:05 PM): i wanna meet you
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:11 PM): and i dunno when i'll have days off again
Trent Kitty (11:41:13 PM): You're a doll
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:16 PM): i have tomorrow and sunday off
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:18 PM): i'm a cat
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:27 PM): i guess i could be a cat doll, though
Trent Kitty (11:41:27 PM): =D
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:32 PM): heh
Trent Kitty (11:41:38 PM): =D
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:45 PM): yeah i think i'm working all next week come monday
OMFG Noah sucks (11:41:48 PM): so yeah
Trent Kitty (11:41:55 PM): nods I know
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:09 PM): i'm gonna beg my housemate and he's gonna let me borrow his car cuz he loves me and he doesn't even know it
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:10 PM): lol
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:22 PM): even if he doesn't
Trent Kitty (11:42:24 PM): heh
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:27 PM): i know the he cares about me
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:32 PM): and he knows how much you mean to me
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:40 PM): you can come sleep with me
OMFG Noah sucks (11:42:44 PM): i'll prolly need sleep too
OMFG Noah sucks (2:11:56 AM): i called at 10:30
OMFG Noah sucks (2:12:08 AM): cuz i couldn't get a hold of your ass
Trent Kitty (2:12:09 AM): yeah. Don't do that again.
Trent Kitty (2:12:21 AM): I got majorly bitched out tyvm
OMFG Noah sucks (2:12:39 AM): sorry
OMFG Noah sucks (2:12:49 AM): i was worried about you okay?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:13:10 AM): you sed you did something to your hand
Trent Kitty (2:13:16 AM): wtf
OMFG Noah sucks (2:13:19 AM): and i couldn't get a hold of you to find out how you were
OMFG Noah sucks (2:13:25 AM): i was fucking worried about you
OMFG Noah sucks (2:13:28 AM): that's why i called
Trent Kitty (2:13:32 AM): no that's kewl
Trent Kitty (2:13:33 AM): but ok
OMFG Noah sucks (2:13:33 AM): i couldn't get you on yer phone
Trent Kitty (2:13:40 AM): what's this shit
Trent Kitty (2:13:45 AM): "I'm coming over"
Trent Kitty (2:13:46 AM): it's like..
OMFG Noah sucks (2:13:51 AM): huh
Trent Kitty (2:13:54 AM): that's not healthy behaviour
Trent Kitty (2:14:04 AM): you fucking ask
Trent Kitty (2:14:14 AM): got it?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:14:40 AM): nope
OMFG Noah sucks (2:14:45 AM): i don't that's beyond me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:14:47 AM): i'm a cat
OMFG Noah sucks (2:14:50 AM): i do what i want
OMFG Noah sucks (2:14:52 AM): plus
OMFG Noah sucks (2:14:56 AM): you said it was okay
Trent Kitty (2:15:02 AM): no
OMFG Noah sucks (2:15:03 AM): or you didn't say anythign against it
Trent Kitty (2:15:11 AM): I didn't condone it
Trent Kitty (2:15:29 AM): well yanno what
OMFG Noah sucks (2:15:30 AM): you were talking about whether to kiss or whatever after i got you here
Trent Kitty (2:15:38 AM): think of my silence as a silent veto then
OMFG Noah sucks (2:15:39 AM): um...
OMFG Noah sucks (2:15:53 AM): so you didn't want me to come visit
OMFG Noah sucks (2:15:57 AM): at all
Trent Kitty (2:16:21 AM): yea just dont bother plz
OMFG Noah sucks (2:17:11 AM): i thought you like me?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:17:15 AM): well
OMFG Noah sucks (2:17:19 AM): you say you do
Trent Kitty (2:17:52 AM): being pushy doesn't get you anywhere with me
Trent Kitty (2:18:26 AM): hey what's that on your buddy icon?
Trent Kitty (2:18:46 AM): ohh yanno what
Trent Kitty (2:18:50 AM): listen to this song
Trent Kitty (2:18:56 AM): bright eyes - if winter ends
OMFG Noah sucks (2:19:30 AM): the person on my buddy icon is Faye Valentine I'm gonna be her for Halloween
OMFG Noah sucks (2:19:40 AM): I don't mean to be pushy
Trent Kitty (2:19:41 AM): that's right
OMFG Noah sucks (2:19:49 AM): I'm just tired of you ignoring me
Trent Kitty (2:20:07 AM): I'm not trying to ignore you
Trent Kitty (2:20:11 AM): I'm not fucking home yanno?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:23:26 AM): well you should be if i tell you i'm gonna come pick you up
OMFG Noah sucks (2:23:28 AM): yanno?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:23:47 AM): believe it or not, borrowing andy's car is a big ass deal
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:03 AM): and i feel BAD for asking for it
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:14 AM): but i did it cuz i wanna see you
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:17 AM): and i never get time off
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:21 AM): and i finally do
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:24 AM): this weekend
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:49 AM): so of course the only thing that i can think of that i wanna do on my first days off from work is see trent kitty
OMFG Noah sucks (2:24:56 AM): but trent kitty is no where to be found
Trent Kitty (2:28:18 AM): whos travis
OMFG Noah sucks (2:28:43 AM): my friend from washington
OMFG Noah sucks (2:28:46 AM): i met him over FTJ
OMFG Noah sucks (2:28:50 AM): he's really sweet
OMFG Noah sucks (2:29:01 AM): juss graduated this year
Trent Kitty (2:29:05 AM): isn't he?
OMFG Noah sucks (2:29:27 AM): yeah... 2003 grad. a sweet kid... really sweet
OMFG Noah sucks (2:30:38 AM): and he actually wants to meet me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:30:47 AM): someday anyway
OMFG Noah sucks (2:31:00 AM): too bad he's not in love with me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:31:10 AM): or i'm not in love with him
OMFG Noah sucks (2:31:23 AM): cuz i doubt he'd do what you're doing
Trent Kitty (2:32:47 AM): hmm
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:07 AM): trent
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:13 AM): why don't you wanna meet me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:20 AM): you say that you like me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:24 AM): wouldn't you wanna meet me?
Trent Kitty (2:33:27 AM): 0300 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: Hi remember when i said i wasnt going to get "emotional" when talking to you?
0301 Sunday 07/06/2003 Trent Kitty: yes
0301 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: well this has no emotional attachment to it
0301 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: your a fucking moron
0302 Sunday 07/06/2003 Trent Kitty: Those were words of ignorance, my friend.
0302 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: ignorance?
0303 Sunday 07/06/2003 Trent Kitty: Yes, your argument is totally unfounded
0303 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: what argument i was stating a fact
0305 Sunday 07/06/2003 Trent Kitty: if it's fact it's not an argument
0305 Sunday 07/06/2003 Trent Kitty: so it seems you're the fucking moron.
0305 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: ok
0305 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: that didnt make any sense
0306 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: and theres no point talking to idiots
0306 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: they tend to drag you down to their level
0306 Sunday 07/06/2003 Travdude123: then beat you with experience
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:29 AM): i rarely get time off
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:32 AM): whoa
OMFG Noah sucks (2:33:33 AM): okay
Trent Kitty (2:33:39 AM): read that
Trent Kitty (2:34:00 AM): Your friends are wonderful
Trent Kitty (2:34:07 AM): really, quite sweet
OMFG Noah sucks (2:34:35 AM): i sent him the part where you said
OMFG Noah sucks (2:34:51 AM): Trent Kitty: think of my silence as a silent veto then
OMFG Noah sucks: um...
OMFG Noah sucks: so you didn't want me to come visit
OMFG Noah sucks: at all
Trent Kitty: yea just dont bother plz
OMFG Noah sucks (2:34:57 AM): i guess he decided to IM you
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:12 AM): he is a sweetheart
Trent Kitty (2:35:22 AM): it's nice to know everyone in the whole world happens to know who I am and what's going on and what my IM name is etc etc
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:28 AM): he juss cares about me. and my feelngs
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:30 AM): sorry
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:34 AM): it happens
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:40 AM): i have a diary online
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:46 AM): i can never get a hold of you
Trent Kitty (2:35:50 AM): reading it.
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:52 AM): your IM name is on FTJ anyway
OMFG Noah sucks (2:35:58 AM): anyone can get a hold of you
OMFG Noah sucks (2:36:05 AM): Travis is on FTJ
Trent Kitty (2:39:13 AM): yanno
Trent Kitty (2:39:18 AM): ...
Trent Kitty (2:39:25 AM): there are plenty of other guys out there.
Trent Kitty (2:39:29 AM): guys who don't smoke cigarettes
Trent Kitty (2:39:35 AM): guys who don't have depression
Trent Kitty (2:39:41 AM): etc etc
OMFG Noah sucks (2:39:41 AM): i have depression
OMFG Noah sucks (2:39:44 AM): get some prozac
Trent Kitty (2:39:52 AM): prozac doesn't work on me
OMFG Noah sucks (2:39:54 AM): you sed that you'd quit cigarettes
OMFG Noah sucks (2:39:57 AM): take more
OMFG Noah sucks (2:40:02 AM): prozac
Trent Kitty (2:40:04 AM): didnt' I tell you I took like 8 pills
OMFG Noah sucks (2:40:15 AM): 80 mg?
Trent Kitty (2:40:18 AM): nod
OMFG Noah sucks (2:40:28 AM): there are other sorts of pills that might work, you know?
Trent Kitty (2:40:34 AM): didn't do shit for me 'cept for maybe a half hour I felt a little better
Trent Kitty (2:40:35 AM): I do know
OMFG Noah sucks (2:40:39 AM): and plus... maybe i'd help more than any medication could
OMFG Noah sucks (2:41:15 AM): Travdude123 (2:39:09 AM): tell him hes a fucking moron because i dont know cant he actually be with you?
Travdude123 (2:39:15 AM): and he doesnt want to be
OMFG Noah sucks (2:44:15 AM): you don't know. it's possible. i could be able to be better for you than any Prozac or Zoloft
Trent Kitty (2:46:21 AM): eee
Trent Kitty (2:46:22 AM): there we go
Trent Kitty (2:46:35 AM): I swear..
Trent Kitty (2:46:44 AM): You're such an open book
Trent Kitty (2:46:55 AM): I knew you aren't over noah
Trent Kitty (2:47:11 AM): how can you be when he's there every time you look at an IM screen?
Trent Kitty (2:47:18 AM): you're not even helping yourself on that one
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Session concluded at 2:50:46 AM
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VEGG1E Kat: happy?
VEGG1E Kat: don't hafta think about Noah?
Trent Kitty: ...
VEGG1E Kat: how do you think I will get over Noah EVER if I dont' find somethign marginally better
VEGG1E Kat: i'm not juss gonna suddenly fall out of love
VEGG1E Kat: i don't do that
VEGG1E Kat: i still love him
VEGG1E Kat: but i'm not in love with him anymroe
VEGG1E Kat: does that make sense?
VEGG1E Kat: he left me... with nothing
VEGG1E Kat: i'm juss...
VEGG1E Kat: i'm trying
VEGG1E Kat: the other sn was for comedic value
Trent Kitty: sweetie
VEGG1E Kat: nothing really serious
Trent Kitty: I'm not a crutch
VEGG1E Kat: i know
VEGG1E Kat: you're someone i have a crush on
Trent Kitty: yeah
VEGG1E Kat: someone that...
VEGG1E Kat: i dunno
Trent Kitty: hmm
Trent Kitty: hey
VEGG1E Kat: hm?
Trent Kitty: probably not a good time to ask this
Trent Kitty: but
Trent Kitty: how many peopel ya slept with
VEGG1E Kat: hm...
VEGG1E Kat: why?
Trent Kitty: (please don't yell at me)
VEGG1E Kat: i don't really keep track
Trent Kitty: ...
Trent Kitty: damn
VEGG1E Kat: 22
Trent Kitty: ow
VEGG1E Kat: not like you can have sex with me anyway
Trent Kitty: ...
VEGG1E Kat: and not like i did it sober and willingly all the time
VEGG1E Kat: i was date raped 4 times
VEGG1E Kat: that's how i lost my virginity
Trent Kitty: makes sense
VEGG1E Kat: yeah
VEGG1E Kat: andy sez that i'm not gonna win you over with this
VEGG1E Kat: i guess i wont
VEGG1E Kat: but i woulda told you eventually anyway
Trent Kitty: Andy's a good guy
VEGG1E Kat: he is
VEGG1E Kat: actually.. he's one of the best guys i know
Trent Kitty: Yeah.
Trent Kitty: You should be more open about things though
Trent Kitty: I wuold've came to the conclusion if you didn't say anything yanno
Trent Kitty: I mean
Trent Kitty: 22 people
Trent Kitty: don't you kill yourself over that?
VEGG1E Kat: um
VEGG1E Kat: yeah
VEGG1E Kat: i feel like a fucking slut
VEGG1E Kat: and a ho
VEGG1E Kat: okay?
Trent Kitty: I know you do
VEGG1E Kat: noah helped me get over that
VEGG1E Kat: but now i'm not again
VEGG1E Kat: cuz i fucked some ppl after noah
VEGG1E Kat: and i didn't give a shit about them
Trent Kitty: I know
VEGG1E Kat: i only fucked em cuz i didn't wanna hurt their feelings
VEGG1E Kat: cuz i wanted to be their friend
Trent Kitty: you really shouldn't do that
VEGG1E Kat: U KNOW
VEGG1E Kat: but I'm TOO NICE
VEGG1E Kat: okay?
Trent Kitty: you're too nice for what
VEGG1E Kat: to say no to ppl who are nice
Trent Kitty: how is that nice
VEGG1E Kat: i can say no to ppl who are good looking and jerks
VEGG1E Kat: but if they are nice
VEGG1E Kat: i usually say not
VEGG1E Kat: not
VEGG1E Kat: no
VEGG1E Kat: but is they take no as a yes
VEGG1E Kat: i don't fight it
Trent Kitty: You don't need me, you need a psychologist.
VEGG1E Kat: cuz...
Trent Kitty: Drugs won't get you over that one
VEGG1E Kat: i have a psychologist
VEGG1E Kat: two
VEGG1E Kat: and a psychiatrist
VEGG1E Kat: and three counselors
VEGG1E Kat: i'm good
VEGG1E Kat: dont worry
Trent Kitty: no...
Trent Kitty: *slaps forehead*
Trent Kitty: Yanno what? nevermind.
Trent Kitty: Thank Andy for me, it was sweet he was going to let you use the car.
Trent Kitty: Although, I've decided we apparently shouldn't see eachother.
Trent Kitty: It seems now that the truth comes out on both of us we wouldn't work anyways.
Trent Kitty: And I'm glad I didn't become another statistic, and I'm glad I didn't get that close to you and then have to hurt you.
Trent Kitty: but this makes the most sense
VEGG1E Kat: what are you talking about?
VEGG1E Kat: Travdude123: theres something there when i talked to him he was nice and that was a big impression on me
VEGG1E Kat: yaeh
VEGG1E Kat: he is nice
VEGG1E Kat: really nice
Travdude123: hes got something inside to deal with i think but hes good somewhere
Travdude123: thats the weird thing about people
Travdude123: they always surprise you when you least expect it
Travdude123: tell me is he worth it?
VEGG1E Kat: i think he is
VEGG1E Kat: no
VEGG1E Kat: i know he is
VEGG1E Kat: and um... that's what i told travis
VEGG1E Kat: trent... how would you really know
VEGG1E Kat: until you met me
Trent Kitty: Yeah
Trent Kitty: I'm nice.
Trent Kitty: Probably too nice for my own good
Trent Kitty: the house smells like burnt popcorn
Trent Kitty: ew
VEGG1E Kat: ...
VEGG1E Kat: so you don't wanna meet me
VEGG1E Kat: so i don't hafta BEG andy for his car tomorrow?
VEGG1E Kat: should i juss give up on you?
Trent Kitty: yes
Trent Kitty: I just explained all that
VEGG1E Kat: you wouldn't become another statistic
VEGG1E Kat: you'd become everything
VEGG1E Kat: and why is your phone still busy
Trent Kitty: BECAUSE i'M ONLINE
VEGG1E Kat: i thought you had two lines/
VEGG1E Kat: ?
Trent Kitty: i do
VEGG1E Kat: doesn't one go online and the other make phone calls?
Trent Kitty: uhm
Trent Kitty: yeah
Trent Kitty: the other line is my parents
Trent Kitty: also got bitched out about that
VEGG1E Kat: SORRY
VEGG1E Kat: you didn't tell me
VEGG1E Kat: and i was juss worried about you
VEGG1E Kat: okay?
VEGG1E Kat: i'm sorr
VEGG1E Kat: u
Trent Kitty: it's kewl
Trent Kitty: I"m ok
Trent Kitty: yanno
Trent Kitty: we're too nice
VEGG1E Kat: i'm gonna go over there anyway
Trent Kitty: what the fuck.
VEGG1E Kat: i don't care if i hafta wait all day til you get back
VEGG1E Kat: i wanna meet you'
Trent Kitty: uhm
Trent Kitty: i like where I live, thank you?
VEGG1E Kat: what does that mean?
Trent Kitty: where are you going to wait
Trent Kitty: (only asking to prove a point)
Trent Kitty: you going to wait in a car?
VEGG1E Kat: mhmm
VEGG1E Kat: wait in Andy's car
Trent Kitty: stalkers do that
VEGG1E Kat: in front of your house
VEGG1E Kat: i want to meet you
Trent Kitty: ask trav is he thinks it's a good idea
VEGG1E Kat: he prolly doesnt
VEGG1E Kat: he thinks that i'm too good for you
Trent Kitty: yeah prolly
VEGG1E Kat: trent
VEGG1E Kat: i wanna meet you
Trent Kitty: kitty
VEGG1E Kat: okay?
Trent Kitty: omg
Trent Kitty: no
VEGG1E Kat: i barely ever have any time off
Trent Kitty: no means no
Trent Kitty: okay?
Trent Kitty: I'm fucking putting my foot down on this.
VEGG1E Kat: You did though... didn't you?
Trent Kitty: throw my fucking address away
VEGG1E Kat: that hurts
Trent Kitty: what hurts more is
Trent Kitty: if I find out you DID sit in the car in front of my house
Trent Kitty: I'm getting a restraining order
VEGG1E Kat: I don't have a car
VEGG1E Kat: I gotta beg Andy
VEGG1E Kat: If you invite me, I'll come
Trent Kitty: let him keep it
Trent Kitty: You aren't invited, kitty
Trent Kitty: not after a conversation like this
VEGG1E Kat: bye bye
VEGG1E Kat: andy was juss talking about himself in third person
VEGG1E Kat: cuz i was crying on my bed
VEGG1E Kat: a conversation like what?
VEGG1E Kat: i'm drunk off my ass
Trent Kitty: i know
VEGG1E Kat: and i'm so in love with you
Trent Kitty: read over the conversation when you're sober
VEGG1E Kat: i prolly will
Trent Kitty: yeah it'll make a lot more sense
VEGG1E Kat: i still wanna meet you, though
Trent Kitty: well a bit more sense I suppose
VEGG1E Kat: i do
VEGG1E Kat: i think that it could work out
VEGG1E Kat: ?
VEGG1E Kat: i'll be sober anyway
VEGG1E Kat: and not as weird and fucked up as i am now
Trent Kitty: this isn't a democracy here, we're not voting on if you get to see me.
VEGG1E Kat: ...
VEGG1E Kat: huh?
VEGG1E Kat: you don't even wanna meet me at all?
VEGG1E Kat: not even as friends?
Trent Kitty: no
VEGG1E Kat: why?
VEGG1E Kat: gimme a reason
VEGG1E Kat: i'll be sober
VEGG1E Kat: come on trent kitty
VEGG1E Kat: please
Trent Kitty: why? You scare me.
Trent Kitty: demanding to come over and all that. You can't pull that shit with me.
VEGG1E Kat: ...
VEGG1E Kat: i told you
VEGG1E Kat: that i wanted to go visit you
VEGG1E Kat: you never said no
VEGG1E Kat: so i assumed that it was a yes
Trent Kitty: I'm not talking about yesterday or whatever
VEGG1E Kat: cuz you seemed like you wanted to meet me
Trent Kitty: i'm talking about today
VEGG1E Kat: i was juss tired of you ignoring me
VEGG1E Kat: today
VEGG1E Kat: cuz andy has a good point when he asks "so does he really wanna meet you?"
Trent Kitty: well guess who's NOT coming over tomorrow
Trent Kitty: psh
VEGG1E Kat: you don't get it
VEGG1E Kat: i'm in love with you
Trent Kitty: ask me again when I'm awake?
VEGG1E Kat: what time is that?
Trent Kitty: monday.
VEGG1E Kat: i'll ask you when i'm awake
VEGG1E Kat: i work on mondays
VEGG1E Kat: and tuesdays
VEGG1E Kat: and wednesdays
VEGG1E Kat: and thursdays
VEGG1E Kat: fridays
Trent Kitty: so what
VEGG1E Kat: so i don't have time to talk to you
VEGG1E Kat: or come see you
VEGG1E Kat: or pick you up
VEGG1E Kat: i had time today
VEGG1E Kat: and i have time tomorrow
VEGG1E Kat: i'm not trying to be pushy
VEGG1E Kat: i'm juss trying to meet you
Trent Kitty: then try again next week please
VEGG1E Kat: okay
Trent Kitty: we're so out of it
VEGG1E Kat: out of what?
Trent Kitty: idk
VEGG1E Kat: call me when you wanna gimme ac hance again
Trent Kitty: donno if I'll even remember THIS conversation
VEGG1E Kat: i'll cry every night until then
VEGG1E Kat: prolly
VEGG1E Kat: cuz i'll remember this convo
VEGG1E Kat: like i remember our last one
Trent Kitty: at least it's on a log
VEGG1E Kat: and the one before that
VEGG1E Kat: meow
Trent Kitty: so I can reread it
Trent Kitty: well were you drunk?
VEGG1E Kat: purrrrr
Trent Kitty: what
VEGG1E Kat: sorry
Trent Kitty: heh
VEGG1E Kat: kat's in the bathroom
VEGG1E Kat: litterbox
Trent Kitty: hehe
VEGG1E Kat: this is her roommate
Trent Kitty: nod, andy
Trent Kitty: How much did she have to drink?
VEGG1E Kat: Well I don't know much about this.
VEGG1E Kat: A lot
VEGG1E Kat: Me too
VEGG1E Kat: I'm just a bystandard
Trent Kitty: yeah
VEGG1E Kat: oh here she is again
Trent Kitty: kat?
VEGG1E Kat: hm
Trent Kitty: uhh
Trent Kitty: i donno
Trent Kitty: hello
VEGG1E Kat: meow
Trent Kitty: ok who is this
VEGG1E Kat: me
Trent Kitty: oh
Trent Kitty: mk
Trent Kitty: you ok?
VEGG1E Kat: no!
VEGG1E Kat: the guy that i'm in love with doesn't want anything to do with me
Trent Kitty: huh
Trent Kitty: hey
Trent Kitty: if I don't go to bed right now
Trent Kitty: I'm going to fall asleep anyways
Trent Kitty: go I hafta let you go
Trent Kitty: sorry
Trent Kitty: please don' be so hard on yerself and stuff
VEGG1E Kat: k.
Trent Kitty: please
Trent Kitty: thank you
VEGG1E Kat: good night, trent kitty
VEGG1E Kat: i love you,
VEGG1E Kat: and stuff
Trent Kitty: nitenite regular kitty with fries
VEGG1E Kat: fries are good
Trent Kitty: add small frostee for 99 cents
Trent Kitty: yeah
VEGG1E Kat: woo!
Trent Kitty: hehehe
VEGG1E Kat: trent
Trent Kitty: yah?
VEGG1E Kat: could you call me tomorrow?
Trent Kitty: oh
VEGG1E Kat: i still wanna meet you
Trent Kitty: did I tell you...
Trent Kitty: I got my other computer with yer numebr tkaen away
Trent Kitty: i need your numbers again
Trent Kitty: so it's 626 something
VEGG1E Kat: 6262901107
VEGG1E Kat: cekk
VEGG1E Kat: cell
Trent Kitty: nod
Trent Kitty: ok
Trent Kitty: thanx
Trent Kitty: well
Trent Kitty: i'm gonna crash now
VEGG1E Kat: and 8314590499 home
Trent Kitty: take care yerself
VEGG1E Kat: nite sweeit
Trent Kitty: oh yeah home is good too
VEGG1E Kat: mhmm
VEGG1E Kat: dont' worry
Trent Kitty: nite sweeit you too hehe
VEGG1E Kat: andy takes care of me
Trent Kitty: yeah
Trent Kitty: woo andy
VEGG1E Kat: have sweet dreams, okay?
Trent Kitty: hehehe
VEGG1E Kat: call me tomorrow
Trent Kitty: sure
Trent Kitty: yea call u
Trent Kitty: ok
Auto response from VEGG1E Kat: I am doing something to get my mind off Trent Kitty. {{Trent's sn was right here}} I dunno what it is.. but I doubt it makes me cry like he does! =P I'm prolly drinking now.
Trent Kitty: I'll leave the window open so I remember
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